Tyler is incredibly excited about the number "256". I didn't understand its significance. The conversation about it went exactly like this:
Tyler: 2. 4. 8. 16. 32. 64. 128. 256. Two to the EIGHTH! The power of twos is the basis of computer science because, why? WHY? Because of "bits". Do you know what a bit is?
Tawnee: Zeroes and Ones?
Tyler: BAM! The power of twos means one bit can be in two states. Two bits can be in 4 states:
- Off and Off
- Off and On
- On and Off
- On and On
Tawnee: Can we be "on and on" forever?
Tyler: Yes! Turned on always and forever in love.
(And then we legitimately hi-fived like a couple of nerds.)
We're ten months apart from our departure and everything is holding a different weight. We're spending a lot of our time discussing plans for how to pack, how to rent our place, how to get medical insurance, where we'll go, how long we'll stay, how we'll come back, how we can make our career "traveling" and how we'd possibly make money along the way.
I revel in the confidence I feel that our lives will change significantly, that we'll discover what we want most out of life. But, we have no way of knowing what any of those thoughts are now. It's like having one foot in the present and one in the future. Like a hazy, distant memory of a dream, only it's all ahead of you.
Despite only having 10 months left, I couldn't handle my nearly 4 hour total commute time. We've spent the past month researching and test driving cars. I was test-driving tiny cars like the Scion iQ and the FIAT. My heart landed on this amazing white and red convertible FIAT. We went back to the dealership 3 times until we finally negotiated a price, higher than we wanted to pay, but in the long run, a couple hundred dollars comes out in the wash. Even in ten months.
I've owned her for 3 days, but she's SO MUCH FUCKING FUN. I haven't owned a car in nearly ten years. It's such a crazy difference from my old Honda Accord, but I the freedom and sheer jubilance that comes with putting the top down. Something about it makes me feel connected to the sense of adventure we're gunning for on our trip.
Meanwhile, things are really building for me at work. My project is incredibly successful. I didn't get my promotion, but with only one performance review under my belt, I was told "It's unprecedented that someone would be promoted at your level in one review." It would essentially mean that they placed me at the wrong level. My manager then went on to say, "It's uncommon for someone to be promoted in two cycles, but if you keep on this same track, you'd be a strong candidate." So, while a bit bummed, I'm still beyond motivated to succeed. By the time April rolls around, I'll own this jam. ;-)
Tyler's currently eating a leftover bowl of mostly sushi rice from a poke bowl he picked up this weekend. He's scavenging rice with his chopsticks and, while he intently works, is gently shaking his head -- partially because of Kanye's beats blaring over our Amazon Echo speaker in the front room, partially because of his realization:
"I love you so much, baby. You made my life something so much more than I ever thought it could be. I'm not the person I ever thought I'd be, and that's exciting.... (he pauses, and provides a humorous punch)...such a fucking feminist."
Everything is sinking in. Every day makes every day more real. We're here, we're present, we're ready for whatever is next.